A New Beginning {wow cool}!

I am writing because if I am that which I am, then I will share with the all I am, network my thoughts of grandiose beliefs in a world that is here, that I dream from, that I choose to see.  I asked myself thru out my journey ” If not I then who?”  and this time I believed it and said yes YES YES!  Now what that meant to me was how far will I go to listen to my LivingGod>>> Or some may say how far down the rabbit hole, etc>>> and then some may say she is nuts and I would have to agree with them all.  For today I can not have a grip on this reality that Self-will has created to Exterminate itself.  My past is one of pain and joy, just like mos,t but for me, my teachers have all been love.  The meaning of that the feeling of that and how come there is not more of that feeling in this contrived, painful place under the boot of self will.   I have come to Know myself in the last year and this isin hopes we can integrate just abit more for oneself if nothing else.  Feeling have ALL WAYS been so large to me ..I have given my all to this and to the finding of oneself.  My soul died when my god-dog “Sunny” died on Jan 10 2010.  My life was done, I was ripped in side out and I, the one that knows of life after death and the one that has reached thru the veil to touch and help all, never for prfit or acknowledgement, but for PEACE.  This is the path, the lover, the peacemaker, the martyr, the victim, the oppressed,   ……..hummmmm  LETs say for 22 years I have practiced a way of life that wants more from life than disease and addiction.  It made me question my very being to be TRUE TO MYSELF so I became the best I believe myself to B!  more to come

Chapter 21 August, Sweet August!

 Aug 7th, 2005 

      August or sweet, hot, muggy August you have never been my friend.  I have tried for many years but as Leo enters Virgo I have faced many challenges.  This month will seem to be different but the only difference is that I am fully present.   As you can tell I have not written anymore on this story.  There were several reasons but the largest one was August 29^th when my heart was broken in a million pieces.  Katrina broke many hearts and killed more than anyone wants to admit.  I am not into political debate because I KNOW all things are just as there supposed to be!

            We entered Canada for the last time, Cranbrook was cool but we were still being drawn west.  The question was still which way? 

Chapter 20 What are we doing?

Aug 4^th , 2005 

         While in Montana I was inspired with an “M” as the destination in Washington.  So I looked at the map and found a triangle of three “M” towns. Monroe, Maryville, and another one I never quite remember.  We knew our destination would be Monroe Washington.  WHY we had no idea, but for me and my journey I don’t have to know why I just have to go and more will be revealed.  Though it didn’t seem I or we were in a hurry to get there.  Almost like we wanted no needed to prolong the journey for some reason. Our rig was reasonably fixed for now and we were heading up to see beautiful British Columbia.  My thoughts is that we could travel over to the west coast thru Canada  but I had know idea of the roads so my thoughts were cloudy, all I had was this day.  Again it was hot and going north seemed the only way to find a cooler climate.    A lot of traveling is how you feel and what your looking for a day at a time.  Nice weather had become my new obsession.  It had been a very hot summer and I’m so thankful that God had us on the move,  we had been in some of the coolest areas in the country but still it was extreme.  Virginia would have been intolerable possibly murderous.  You never know what could have happened if we hadn’t followed the voice.   (Though you can remember what did happen when you followed your own wills way, more often than not something unfortunate.  But you say it seems a lot of unfortunate things have occurred in our lives but not so.)  Every challenge has brought us to someone we’ve met or a new understanding of who we’re becoming.          
Canada was cooler and the road was easy.  Or so we thought but tomorrow was another day and more was to be revealed.  We drove to Cranbrook a nice little Canadian town, we found an RV park to stay for the night.  It was a pull thru and no-one was there.  So we dropped the car to explore the province………MORE TO COME!

Chapter 19 Walking with God!

 July 28th thru Aug 4th, 2005

We left Dunseith on the morning of the 28th and drove for several hundred miles.  We saw small towns and fields of sunflowers.  Then we went into the prairies of N.D. and Montana where there was nothing but dirt.  As we entered Montana we saw the strangest thing,  there was a small pond and above it floating in absolute

Chapter 18 The Convergence!

July 26^th to July 28th 2005 We left Lake Bronson that morning relieved to be on the road again.  Lake Bronson was very nice but as we found out it cost the same as a motel room and didn’t even have full-hook-up.  Also the mosquito’s really enjoyed snacking on De.  As we left we saw a large snake sunning himself in the road.  We always pay heed to the animals we see for they tell us messages we need to know.  Snake means

Chapter 17 The Most Beautiful Place.

July 22nd thru July 25th, 2005

          We entered the U.P. and were blown away by how much cooler it was and how the tall pine trees danced in the wind.  We routed our drive to the best of our intuition and as we drove we saw many campgrounds but it wasn’t meant to be, so we continued on the two lane.  They have NO freeways up here it is marvelous!  As we came around a corner there it was a stunning beach on Lake Michigan with a big pull off just meant for us.  We parked and took our shoes off and walked down to the beach.  Finally I could breath again.  My heart was at peace and the anxiety from the BRIDGE was now gone.  TYG~!!!!~  We walked

Chapter 16 Inner Voice or it Voices?

July 17^th thru July 21st, 2005

My dreams are haunted with so many things yet to be and so many fears and insecurities.  As I wake I have not rested at all.  It’s just been one long lecture as I  take notes on a film I saw with my eye lid’s closed.  I do this every 3 to 4 months to assimilate that which I am; into that which I will become.  It’s like coming attractions that I will someday know as de’ja vu.  Then there are the places where

Chapter 15 Bliss is This!

 June 28 – July 17, 2005

Finding ones bliss, I’ve heard of this like most of you but how do you do it?  There are some of you that already know bliss, which is great!  I’m so thrilled for you.  To find one’s bliss is to find that which we constantly look outside ourselves for within us.  This has probably been said many times in many ways I was just not ready to comprehend it.  Finding my bliss was still outside myself until NOW!  We search for happiness, we long for serenity and peace, we try to attain enlightenment but none us this works because we do this all with understanding (using the mind).  I had an ex-husband that said “you will never be able

Chapter 14 This is a new adventure?

May 18^th thru June 28th, 2005    I’m sitting in the North Fork Resort camp store, listening to the security radio and doing two jobs at once.  Wow, have things changed! We got here on the 18^th of May and at once

Chapter 13 We begin Again!

May 9^th thru May 18th, 2005It’s amazing how we can just create a new life , a new you, by just beginning again.  I have been thinking (DANGEROUS) in the last few weeks how many times I have been reborn.  How many times I’ve died.  We all have!  So why do we think this is IT, all the time, maybe our perceptions(our ego) are the